I feel like its my fault that your not here. I loved you when I found out I was pregnant. I even wanted you so desperately before then. You finally arrived in my life. I was over the moon with joy. All I wanted to do was protect you. I did the best I could with what I had. I was fool when I didn't know you were in me. I didn't mean to drink so much. Now, I wish I had quit when I had better sense to do it. I wish you didn't have to do and end like this. I dont know why your really not here but I have my guesses. I asked God to protect you the day before you died. I guess he did in his own way but it hurts that I had to let you go so fast. You'll always be my Angel baby #1 no matter what. I love you my darling.
Rest forever in God's arms.
