Paranoid

Lately TLW has been racking his brain. He thinks that Im cheating on him. He's been hacking into my e-mail accounts. He already has my myspace. I gave that to him because he asked. Lately he's been so paranoid. I dont care because I dont derserve him to flip like this on me. Like Im the one who started to cheat earlyer this year. I do find it quite funny though. What he's done is coming back on his ass before I've even stuck my hand in it yet. I hope he gets more paranoid. He really derserves it, all that shit he put me through this year; its only fair. I love him alot but you can not expect me to pitty him on what he had coming to him. Besides I'll let Karma handle his ass for now. I just find it quite funny. He says that I've been growing distant. Thats such a lie! I've been tired lately. I just got over food poisoning and I have been working out. I have a damn reason to be tired! Just to think this is all because we dont go to sleep at the sametime anymore. He thinks Im out and about romping all over town. You have to find the humor in this because, it does not make sense its so silly! Atleast, I know he cares about me. I still love him but I think that this is very funny and sad at the sametime.

Crossroads

He's changing again. I think for the best but Im not sure yet. The last time this happned he went back to his old evil ways. Im falling for him again but pushing him away at the sametime. I dont want to be hurt again. I dont want to be a pawn in this game he wants to play. I dont want to give up what we've strived for in 3+ years. Hes done it so much that I dont know what to think now. He's playing his game again or he has changed some. I dont want to acknowledge the truth of him changing because everytime I do, it just turns out to be him dogging me again. I dont know what to do. Im waiting for the tide to turn...