Things are not going as smoothly as I had hoped. For one he is still up to his "dogging" ways I believe. Yesterday I read an email that I was supposed to send him back in Dec 09. The first thought that poped into my head after reading it was "And you married somebody like that!?." I have a bold and sharp confession I believe that marrying TLW was a mistake. I really do think that he is up to his old tricks again. If I decided to divorce him I would have no case. No EVIDENCE(some but not enough[long story])! He recently discovered IMVU.com. I know that is a 3D web chat but I believe that he is using that to cheat. I also have been thinking the thought "It is just the internet it is not like they will ever meet and as soon as it leaves the cpu, it is cheating." Another thought is "Things like this always start small then escalate." I am really in the middle of this. I wish he did not have to feel like he needs constant attention from girls(I believe that is how he is). More so I wished I waited a little longer to marry him. I married him becuase I love him and he is my best friend but more so, so I would not lose him(is that incorrect?). We even got into a fight on our wedding day about him cheating. He said "I am over that now; I am ready to be with you." I wonder if that was a spur of the moment words or heart felt feelings? The one question I keep asking myself is "I can not believe that I married you." When we first got married I regretted {I never told him} it but it soon faded away (3days later). I would wear my wedding ring with the diamond on the inside of my finger, so it would look like I just had an engagement ring. I still love TLW with all my heart I just wish he would change. I never had the idea "Oh well maybe marriage will change him." Never once did I think that. I trusted him on what he said about changing. Maybe he has changed (doubt it) only time will tell. I do not want to divorce TLW I just want to find out why he is like this.(his grandfather, and father were like this<they also got OTHER women pregnant outside their marriage needless to say that is a HUGE fear within myself to deal with that if it happens>) I am just wondering, DID I MAKE A BIG MISTAKE SHOULD I DIVORCE BEFORE SOMETHING AWFUL HAPPENS?
